Unlike some first time mothers, this wasn’t my first time being around babies. I grew up helping out with my brother and sister. So, I’m pretty much familiar with majority of the baby care necessary to take care of my baby so far. Becoming a mother has added another angle to the equation. Now, it’s not just someone’s baby. It’s MY baby. Being a mother has changed the game on my perspective. Check out my thoughts two month’s into this lifelong journey of parenthood.
My body has said Adios to any kind of normal sleep pattern. It’s to the point that I’m actually writing this post at 3oclock in the morning. I just finished feeding Dominic. He’s officially drifted off into la la land. I’m wide awake on the other hand. I have a romantic comedy playing on Netflix while typing this post. During his first month, I was determined to get him on a schedule that resembled anything normal. That failed. The next two weeks were spent with me trying to sleep whenever he knocked out. Another fail. I mean, I need sleep but not that much. Now, I’m going through a stage where I’m just up for long periods of time while everyone is fast asleep. Hopefully, this stage passes as well. I doubt my body can last long on numerous cups of coffee and tea while I catch catnaps.
2. I will forever be a worry wart
I officially now understand that saying that kids are your heart outside of your body. I can’t count the amount of times I’ve panicked that something is wrong. I’m pretty sure Dominic’s doctor and his father have just accepted my million questions and anxiety regarding Dominic and his progress. Now that someone is my responsibility, I don’t want to take any chances. I’m always checking to make sure he’s okay and progressing how he should. I doubt this feeling will ever subside.
3. His smile will be the highlight of my day
You know how you have those parents that act like everything their child does is life altering? Yup, that’s me. Guilty as charged. Every time I am able to catch his little smiles and hear his baby babble, my day is complete. I’d be lying if I said I don’t look forward to our little “conversations”.
4. Breastfeeding is hard!
I swear breastfeeding must be my evil nemesis. Who really can pump every two to three hours all day?! I know it’s for the best but I shall complain through it all. I’m far from acing this part of motherhood.
5. Poop diapers…
Even a mother’s love can’t make poop diapers easier to smell or change. Though after it’s all changed, Dominic melts my heart once again. Totally worth the smells and mess.
Obviously, it’s way more to motherhood than just these five thoughts. It’s the most rewarding and yet challenging aspect of my life. I know this is just the tip of the iceberg. Let’s see what the next few months hold for Dominic & I. I’m sure it will go by fast. I can’t wait to capture each and every moment. Stay tuned for the next few chapters.